Thursday, October 27, 2022

On suggestibility II

I went through a period where I played darts, quasi-competitively in my mid-30s. As an aside, Paul R. is the person I credit with introducing me to darts. For the duration of our companionship in Atlanta, he never once let his poor, competitive girlfriend win. What a gift. It is a beautiful game, with lots of opportunities to learn. 

In any case, there was a player here, in Los Angeles, who could reliably throw off my game. He was a large, squat, angry sort of man - the kind you weren't surprised to find was unhappily divorced and also racist. He would walk up to the board and chuck his darts, unceremoniously, one after the other, thunk thunk thunk, in quick succession. He seemed not to care where they hit, but they did more often than not. 

At some point I noticed when playing him I spent less time finding my footing, less time aiming, and was hurrying my throw (thunk thunk thunk). I was unconsciously imitating this man's rhythm and his attitude as well - and it wasn't working for me. I only began playing better against him when I reclaimed my own personal rhythm and took my time aiming again, but it took work. 

Friday, February 19, 2021

I love you in the morning light


And in the haze of noon.


I love you as the blue skies fade


Into the shining moon.


I love you in the dark of night


When all but crickets rest


And every moment in between 


Is equally as blessed.

Monday, November 30, 2020

apples, plums, cherries, 
mangos, peaches, strawberries, 
kiwis, pears, and mandarin,
breastfed baby's cheeks fill-in

Sunday, January 19, 2020

Little Passenger

All this time you've been with me
a dormant part waiting to meet
another to make us both complete.
I'm more than just a little scared
of the changes that you bring but,
each day you grow inside so grows
a Mother's bravery.